on my mind has anyone really asked whats on my mind? or what im feeling right now? ever since i got back for this stupid vacation, people have done nothing but judge me. nobody ever bothered to ask whats been up with me, for real. if anyone really cares, heres the truth:

im in pain. the mental exhaustion is horrible. worse, the emotional fatigue is just unbearable. i dont wanna be in this place anymore. i wanna go home. but familial obligations just constrain me. and some loser had to sue on false claims, ruining my vacation even more and extending my visit too. then my barkada? well seriously, i dont feel at home with them. ive seen before my very eyes how they have taken a side. and i dont fault them for that. but i will not bear with it either. thats just being too plastic of me. so yes, i dont want to be with u guys. you make me feel so...evil.

i just wanna do what i want. for the first time, i want to be selfish. i want to think of myself. but i dont think im built that way. maybe i should try. after all this is my life.  ¶ 11:18:00 AM 18 comments