wala niyan sa amerika
translation: you dont have that in the united states.there's this commercial about this grandmother who came back to the philippines after quite a long stay in the united states. from the airport to the house, she kept saying "wala niyan sa amerika" every time she saw something uniquely filipino: jay walkers, the heat, drivers who do not abide by traffic rules, a gazillion potholes on the road, horrendous traffic. but when she got to the house, her grandkids hugged her and kissed her. her son told her: wala niyan sa amerika.we went out for lunch today because its mum's birthday on tuesday. we ate at dampa (sorry folks, i dunno how to translate dampa to english), my family's second favorite (next to our neighborhood japanese restaurant -- okasan -- which has long been demolished by the alabang town center mall). in dampa, u order the seafood that u want and they would cook it for you any way you like. it is actually the restaurant that goes to the market for you right before they cook the food. dont worry, the market is just behind the restaurant. and since my family is totally addicted to seafoods, eating at dampa is always a feast.so at lunch, family and friends celebrated mum's birthday. wala niyan sa amerika my younger sister told me. and i guess she's right. there's no such thing in the united states. although i have family there, i wouldnt have my immediate family with me. but does that change my decision that i wanna go home to chicago soon? NO.i still wanna go home to chicago. as soon as possible. i still want the freedom, independence and responsibility. i still want to see tim and nicole, eric and christine, shasha, lovine, pao, p.a., jaypee, clarence, sherrie, shaun (when he gets back from iraq), piapie (of course), cindee, bel (oh my retardedness!). and more importantly, i still need to be physically closer to mike and make sure he's ok...and there's still so much more with chuck that i need to do and make him realize.although it cannot be denied that i want to be with my family, my heart is still in chicago. and i cant wait for the day to come that i would be awaken by the planes of palwaukee airport or the sirens of squad cars in the city.i just hope that the people i left behind would still be waiting for me to come back.things and people im thankful for:- mum
- family
- crabs and shrimps and squids and all the seafood i could eat
- text message from chuck (damn i miss chuck so much it hurts)
- chuck
- mike
- my friends here that keep me sane
- the old student council...for being there for me
- my 3a class who continue to make me feel at home
- breathing and finding myself alive each day
things and people im praying for:
- political situation in the philippines thats dividing the country and continue to put the people in turmoil
- chuck--that he's always ok and safe. i hope he knows that he's holding a special place in my heart...and how much i miss him...
- mike -- that his broken heart be mended soon..and that he realizes how important he is to me
- my sisters and brothers...enough said
- tim and nicole
- 3a
- the student council
- sc 2004-2005
- pia
- bel
not just another weekend
each weekend here, each day that i spend here breaks my heart. but yeah, it draws me closer to the day when id be back to where i really belong...HOME.
this experience is teaching me too much patience and anyone who knows me years back can attest that i sometimes do not have the skills to be patient...but this time things are different, mainly because the top guys in my life right now (my dad still holding position number 1) are teaching me how it is to be patient.
my unconventional friendship with mike is a true test of patience (and just when i need him the most, he's out having a good time coz its the 4th of july weekend)... and waiting for fall to come to see chuck, well, thats another story altogether (and he's nowhere to be found as well *sigh*)...
i guess i like what im learning because its teaching me to be mature. after all, im not 13 anymore. but with the lessons come the pain, you know...i look at the clock and time seems to go so slow. maybe i should stop thinking...or maybe i should control the way i think so that time does not become too much of a burden for me (see, mike, im reading the book you sent me). i should control the situation. *yeah right, as if i can do that*
i guess all my babbles now will just bring me to the same thing over and over again... I WANNA GO HOME.
things i miss from HOME:
- i miss the breeze of the windy city.
- i miss the smell of the lake while jogging by lake shore drive at 6am.
- i miss the sound of planes landing and taking-off from the palwaukee airport.
- i miss the bars and the clubs...
- i miss watching frida lay and drag queens at roscoes (on second thought, i miss halsted altogether LOL).
- i miss eating at the cheesecake factory, especially the one at schaumburg.
- i miss early morning cab rides when ive had too much to drink (theyre just so safe!)
- i miss swingers parties LOL -- more importantly, i miss tim and nicole terribly
- i miss krispy kremes
- i miss watching my russian neighbor pass by the patio
- i miss driving to nowhere. alone.
- i miss eating alone.
- i miss doing the laundry.
- i miss cooking for myself.
- i miss running around river trails by myself.
- i miss doing nothing at all.
- i miss that used book store in evanston
- i miss passing by loyola U almost everyday...i miss watching the college students
- i miss passing by the frat rows and sorority rows in northwestern.
- I MISS MIKE...he was so much nearer when i was there...its like i dont need to worry about anything coz he's just half an hour away (even less, i think)...
- I MISS CHUCK. i miss driving to elk grove and schaumburg even if i wont even see him...i miss talking to him on the phone late at night. i miss seeing him. i miss walking in the park with him, our fingers laced together. i miss my 16-year-old moments. I MISS CHUCK. do i need to say more? damnit.
*maybe i should've just out things to look forward to? nah..i do miss them...but they are indeed something to look forward to
people and things to be thankful for:
- i woke up today. im alive
- my dad
- my friends from school who keep me sane
- chrissy - for helping me cope
- mundane things like betsy, my mp3 player, my running car, my new flash drive, my evil plans
- OF COURSE, there's mike, who's MIA for the weekend
- more importantly CHUCK, who i know is totally busy and is MIA for the weekend as well
people and things to pray for:
- chuck
- mike
- chrissy
- me
- tim and nicole, katie and cassie
- christine and eric
- clarence
- shaun
- scott
- that time passes by quickly so that when i open my eyes, im back home again.
GRRRRRR
i really dont like people who are such know-it-alls...especially those who try to tweetum their way into things. i get so annoyed at people who do someone else's job not because the right person is too ineeficient or too incompentent to do it but because someone wants his or her name more pronounced all over. things have just started...i dont know what you are campaigning for. besides, if people trust you, there is no need to campaign. people would and should know who you are. after all, you do know how to make ur presence felt by the things that you wear (please stay out of the beach...lol)... now, if you continue being the annoying fishbone in everyone's throat, you better be ready for the surprise of your life. no more mr. nice guys on my part. prepare for battle. id make your life a living hell.BITCH MODE: ON.people and things to be thankful for:- short text message from chuck
- dinnerwith my brothers
- seeing tabs
- doranne -- she's making the shirt design! thanks! alabshoo!
- student council and coal
- mike's ultra short email
- less pain in my mouth
- lunch with abi and helga
- harmony is clarence's daughter
things and people to pray for:
- chuck
- mike
- tim and nicole, katie and cassie
- christine and eric
- clarence
- shaun's safety
- scott's safety
- annoying hippopotamus...or should i say warthog? whale?
- that u completelt heal soon so i can wear pumps, high heels and short skirts...and so that i could go back to the gym
- world peace
- political stability
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