crabby patti i got home at about 130am from inuman with my starbucks family (yes, we're not just friends...we're family). when i got home, pops asked me if i was still gonna go watch the PAQman -Morales match with him and the boys. i said yes (the whole reason why i was up until 4am, finishing transpo - please dont ask me why i couldnt finish it in one sitting when it was just about 140 pages - i was studying...IN STYLE the south people's way!). he was waking me up at 7am but i couldnt get up...PAIN! damnit. dysmennorhea just had to kick in today. i went over to their house and told pops i wasnt coming anymore because i was in pain. thats ok..im sure kaya mo yan...konting sakit lang naman yan eh. KONTING SAKIT?!?! FATHER! you dont know what you're talking about!!! i was actually pissed. mum was like, naku florante. hindi ka pa rin natututo sa 3 anak mo na babae! and pops was like she never had that before! she just started having that like last year! this is just an isolated incident! uhm, not really, pops. this is a side effect of those depo shots that i took so faithfully for years. heck, ur baby girl grew up. sorry!

had breakfast at the other house and was looking for pain killers. cant drink mefenamic acid or ibuprofen the rest of my life...intestines took too much of a beating from the last time. tramadol? hell no. i still have to wake up and read transpo and a whole lot more for conflicts. so i stumbled upon popo's grape-flavored advil syrup. aha! pain killer! yikes, ibuprofen!!! but what the fuck. i dont care. i need pain killers (that wont make me sleep) FAST! so i just gulped it all down and now im hoping i dont get even more sick because i disobeyed doctors orders.

everything just pisses me off. this orange juice glass on my table. the readings i need to get done. not being able to watch PAQman. having to wake up to study. waking up at 7am. eating tuna. the painters at my house. the smell of paint. touching fucking wet paint! cant they damn put a sign? no warning from anyone! damn you people! AAAAAUUUUUGGGHHHHH!

so now, im shutting out the world. id be sleeping and pray that when i wake up, i wont be this crabby anymore.  ¶ 8:43:00 AM